I’m lonely. There’s no one I genuinely can talk to and automatically feel better, I ignore most of my current conversations till I get bored.
I’m sad. I find myself unhappy for no definite reason a range of thoughts just evade me.
I’m angry. It seems like no matter how hard I try and no matter how it seems like I’m happy it never lasts longer than a minute, I feel under par.
I’m confused. I know not whether I’m actually a person who is loved or who barely exists.
I hurt. Every time these headaches overwhelm me and I have a fever, feeling extremely sick. The pain extends through my head, heart, face, muscles, everywhere!
I wallow in thoughts. I’m trying to think rather than exist. To escape from the bitter reality and make a better something of what seems like a hopeless tragedy.
I wonder. Am I self destructive? Can I ever be fully happy and less stressed?
No answers. I think 24/7, yet nothing. What a mirage of a world. We seem to see solutions but it’s all a group of temporary / non feasible / unrealistic ideas.
I have a massive headache is the last thing I know for the night… Xx
Don’t be. Continue to write. You are really good at it! Besides, its good therapy 🙂
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Thank you 🙂
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Sounds like a lot to deal with, anything I can do to help? O.o
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